Captured
by Colton White
I’ve been thinking about the word captured a lot today. It can be used in several different ways, but what’s weird is the different ways I am experiencing the word.
Captured Geographically
Before I explain let me say this: I love my job, I LOVE my students, they have been a source of joy for me in the last couple years. However, sometimes I just want to GO. To be somewhere where nobody knows who I am, nobody knows my past, and nobody knows my mistakes. They just see me. That’s it. However, I’m here where the Lord has called me to be, and I have peace with that, I really do. I have friends who love me in the midst of my mistakes and I’m thankful for them.
Capture By A Vision
Feeding off this idea of going, I have this vision of what is possible. The places I could end up, the things I could see, and the people I could meet. This vision is intoxicating, and I catch myself thinking about it ALL the time. There is some freedom in being twenty-one years old and knowing you have your whole life in front of you. I read about what the Lord is doing around the world and I cant help but think about joining in that work. Cant help but have this vision of what is to come, but also understanding that the joy can give me joy here doing what i’m doing for the rest of my life, because he is that good.
Captured By Mistakes
It’s no secret that I have made mistakes, that I don’t always think things through, and that I follow my heart way more than I should. It gets me in trouble sometimes, and I have hurt some people that I care deeply about. It is sad. Sad that I’m afraid to walk into a room where someone might be, just because I don’t want to face them. Fear is a powerful thing. It brings the coward out in me. I’ve worked hard to establish good relationships and to build a life giving community around me, but the Lord is the foundation. He proves that over and over again by showing me the gravity of my mistakes.
Captured By Grace
This one does not need much explanation. The only guarantee in my life is that I know that HIS grace is better. His blood has covered my mistakes, I am His, and only his. He is better. He is better. He is better.
